Sometimes it super gets me down that through my health I indirectly am excluded to a degree from some of my best friends’ social circle who’s foundation rests in quidditch. I am unable to play and as such have a sort of barrier standing in between me and the tribe. I will never be included in certain events and gatherings and that leaves me ever at the edge kind of looking in instead of being “one of us/them”.
Prompted after I realized most of this clique is gifting each other but that I found it out secondhand. I also haven’t anyone to mutually holiday gift except some relatives because of convention. My closest friends have celebrated my birthday but it really stinks to seem unimportant /unincluded in what I consider to be my social web, to the point of not celebrating December holidays together.
Maybe I’m just projecting though and I’m not actually as good of friends with as many of them as I think and…
Idk. Sometimes I have a hunch I’m seen as a kind of Luna lovegood type that people tolerate but don’t really understand or who think is weird /crazy