i realized that i actually have been losing sleep in a massive amount consistently in the past few months because - and i only see this in hindsight - i wanted to be successful, more than i cared about sleep.
and my health has been improving too, crohn’s-wise.
this isn’t to say i ‘don’t sleep ever’. I sleep. I sleep enough that i get a rem cycle or two a day and that my cells can repair themselves sufficiently. but i never say to myself, ‘ehhh i have a few more hours this morning ill just fall back asleep.’ Not anymore. These days, I get up and. I. Focus. I focus for as much as I can.