do you ever just want to sit outside with someone and talk all night because i do


1. Make sure you own a nice bed.

2. Sleep in it frequently.

3. Remember how nice it feels to flip over your pillow to the cooler side.

4. Check your pulse and hum along to the rhythm because it is music.

5. Write clear and make a lot of spelling errors. Get the poison out and don’t worry about it being neat.

6. If you can, do not shut people out. You will have good days and they should see them.

7. If you feel overwhelmed, go outside and scream. Find a nice empty park in the middle of the night and scream as loud as you can until your throat is bleeding. The world wants to hear you.

8. Let yourself fall in love. Believe it or not, there are people out there who want your blacks and blues.

9. Keep waking up.

10. Keep waking up.

11. Keep waking up. Maybe with someone next to you.


tips on how to keep going | Caitlyn Siehl (via perfect)



I don’t mind being alone, I just hate feeling alone

The most accurate thing I’ve ever read

Sometimes the hardest part about going to bed/sleep is the not infrequent… Uneasiness…/ discomfort… Of sleeping by myself. I’m a bit of a cuddly sleeper (but definitely not abnormally so) and even after being alone for (embarrassing, not gonna dwell on it so we will just say) ??? amount of time I still so often yearn to share my bed, not even in a sexual manner (well, just a little cause I don’t feel the same warmth and safety and relaxation from male contact), just in a caringly intimate manner.
It’s a feeling of vague incompleteness, of unconscious uncertainty and emotional homelessness that saps the spirit. Being in the custody of this spectre of solitude leaves me ever undated

"The problem with loneliness is that, unlike other forms of human suffering, it teaches us nothing, leads us nowhere, and generally devalues us in our own eyes and the eyes of otheres. It lies upon the soul lightly or heavily, depending on one’s age and one’s luck, and swiftly transforms the heartiest of souls into a living ash of spiritual doubt and despair. It is imprevious to medicine, common sense, wisdom, humor, hope, or pride. It simply comes, sits in the center of the heart where it cannot be overlooked, and abides."

Forgotten Fire- Adam Bagdasarian (via vahe24)


This constant state of loneliness just won’t go away. Please, just stop making me feel so lost.

for more than a month now I’ve been one person disconnecting from me away from being entirely lonesome.

I am thankful for him.


Its so weird how no one really knows anyone. 

Does that make sense? 

"Seems like the more you grow, the more time you spend alone

Before you know it you end up perfectly on your own”

Let me be a shoulder/ear.

None of us are alone, If we choose not to be.